A regret on other's expectation

In late morning on Saturday 13th Sep, 2014, surfing on facebook, I caught attention on a FB friend's post on AIESEC IFL LCM (a type of meeting). Bang! I wanted to drop a short visit! I just felt I missed the memory of the LCM.

I finally could manage to join their meeting. Initially, I just wanted to connect and get to know what the younger generation members had been doing. The feeling was great; I got a very warm greeting and nice talk with Reach, a Vice President. I even got great sense of welcome when I came into their meeting. I got little nice and short chats with other members and their chair I was quite impressed with their executive level on their presentations; they just did well. Until I was asked to share my story with AIESEC, I somehow got lost what to share.

I thought of sharing the audience with my reasons of joining AIESEC and full commitment with AIESEC by taking risk of stepping to be LCP (Local Committee President of AIESEC IFL) when I was about to finish my final year of university. Secondly, I shared them about failures I had faced during my management year including the whole team challenges and time conflict by working fully for AIESEC IFL against balanced time with my family members and friends. Eventually, despite numerous failures and downside moment, I could reach ultimate goals of leading AIESEC IFL to be the best of the year, influence friends and family on the time conflict, and improve personal and professional experience (lesson learnt from the mistakes).

The problems were that I explained in theoretical ways and attempted to mention them as "YOU" rather my personal stories. It was a huge irrlevant stories of their lives and abstract to them. I could feel negative senses rather inspiring stories that I tried to illustrate. I kept speaking unclear stories and did not finish with the right ending of my successful stories. I was distracted when I could realize I spoke over time, and some people needed to leave NOW!!

My speech was over, and I could feel sorry to them that I did not achieve expectation of EB (Executive boards) on me to inspire new members. I kept blaming myself for whole afternoon until night. Interestingly, I read a few articles on failure of entrepreneurs, which inspired me not to regret with what I have done, but to regret what I have never done. It was a quite remarkable experience for me to achieve what people expect from me.

Be better prepared, buddy.