A regret on other's expectation

In late morning on Saturday 13th Sep, 2014, surfing on facebook, I caught attention on a FB friend's post on AIESEC IFL LCM (a type of meeting). Bang! I wanted to drop a short visit! I just felt I missed the memory of the LCM.

I finally could manage to join their meeting. Initially, I just wanted to connect and get to know what the younger generation members had been doing. The feeling was great; I got a very warm greeting and nice talk with Reach, a Vice President. I even got great sense of welcome when I came into their meeting. I got little nice and short chats with other members and their chair I was quite impressed with their executive level on their presentations; they just did well. Until I was asked to share my story with AIESEC, I somehow got lost what to share.

I thought of sharing the audience with my reasons of joining AIESEC and full commitment with AIESEC by taking risk of stepping to be LCP (Local Committee President of AIESEC IFL) when I was about to finish my final year of university. Secondly, I shared them about failures I had faced during my management year including the whole team challenges and time conflict by working fully for AIESEC IFL against balanced time with my family members and friends. Eventually, despite numerous failures and downside moment, I could reach ultimate goals of leading AIESEC IFL to be the best of the year, influence friends and family on the time conflict, and improve personal and professional experience (lesson learnt from the mistakes).

The problems were that I explained in theoretical ways and attempted to mention them as "YOU" rather my personal stories. It was a huge irrlevant stories of their lives and abstract to them. I could feel negative senses rather inspiring stories that I tried to illustrate. I kept speaking unclear stories and did not finish with the right ending of my successful stories. I was distracted when I could realize I spoke over time, and some people needed to leave NOW!!

My speech was over, and I could feel sorry to them that I did not achieve expectation of EB (Executive boards) on me to inspire new members. I kept blaming myself for whole afternoon until night. Interestingly, I read a few articles on failure of entrepreneurs, which inspired me not to regret with what I have done, but to regret what I have never done. It was a quite remarkable experience for me to achieve what people expect from me.

Be better prepared, buddy.

The fear of start-up entrepreneur

Here we go; I decided to quickly come back into Phnom Penh, Cambodia after my graduation of Master degree from Shanghai University of Finance and Economics,  in Shanghai, China. It is because that I see great opportunities of many businesses to operate here.

However, it is not what I always expect. I just cannot make a shot without thinking too much. Here are my common steps of operating my business:

1. I try to think of what business to do, and I just make a big picture of it (the power of big dream into reality).
2. From my experience and family support condition, I know I can only invest in a business with less than 50k capital. Thus, I only focus on small capital business opportunities.
3. After the business concept #1 matches #2 criteria, I make financial planning in simple ways of expense, 3-month expected income, 1-year expected income, etc. It helps me to make a more serious decision if the profit is qualified motivation to work on it into reality.
4. I let myself have little break of several days or a week to see if I still have passion in it later. Of course, every business into action will take me a couple of years into commitment and hard work.
5. After making analysis on several businesses, I realize that I have limited professional qualification to develop my business into a systematic level rather a small and family business style.

So now, I realize that I have little problem of being too early to start-up without a proper cashflow (I have not earned for two years earlier and now I still do not make any income resource successfully). Sometimes, it is a big demoviation to turn me to rethink if I should work for others for further professional experience and human network while I can have time to consider what business to run at the same time.

Thanks for this moment, I have learnt many things about myself and future career path. For more information of life sharing, you may comment and ask.
Hope you have learnt something and would like to make some comments.

time to leave

Well, today is my first day of no longer being LCP of AIESEC IFL...

what words can describe how I feel right now??? It's combination of feeling relief after no longer this high responsibility on my shoulders, yet I really can't help myself looking back the old time of every thing happening in  AIESEC IFL....

I feel as if it's just happened some time recently... Everything is on my mind once again with a quick scanning pics of everything including
- my standing on LCP election day,
-how hard to select EB team 10-11 (other candidates felt down when they couldn't make it..)
-how how to attempt for Discover leadership Seminar in Auditorium G,
-how late to prepare induction day till 2AM and whole day long of stressful judgement and observation to select new members 10-11....
-cheering and screaming sound on our members' announcement day: it's quite heart-attacking really...
-challenging marketing day during IFL graduation day
-Summer conference
-success of COMMS on GLP tickets
-success of WAP of OGX at UP conference
-sense of toughness of OPS by OGX
-troubles happening in ICX (meeting, people, ....etc.)
-troubles in LCM ...
-matters happening in OC for NC
........
-a true crying event of LC award during Gala dinner
-a wonderful ever NC: sense of togetherness, sense of loving LC, sense of maturing time, sense of true life
-good and bad time with MC...
.........

still, it's time to say GOODBYE v_v
though somehow I don't want to... it's time.... well, life is gonna move on.
I still wanna show my love and gratitude foremost to my EB team and wholly to my beloved LC as well as all AIESEC friends...

I <3 AIESEC
ONCE AIESECer, forever AIESECer

What makes you proud of yourself???

To all readers,

what make you proud of yourself??? I don't ask about your past pride. I wanna ask about achievement that can make you feel proud in the future. Why it's important?

Sure it is. Ask yourself for this answer....
It gives you direction of your want....

It simply makes you successful....

If you don't have any idea about your pride, don't worry you're not only one. You're one among many people who are waiting for failure i may say ..... (that should be pros and cons with this idea, but think over. if you even don't know what you want, who knows?)

What will make me proud of myself in this short 3-6months would be:
-get SSEAYP
-graduate from IFL with score 80s up
-get a scholarship to study MBA in China: Nanjing, Shanghai...

Yes, let's create our pride!!!

Reach a crossroad in life career

Time flies very fast, too fast to think over back again. It's almost four years already for my decision once again on career life... Honestly, it's really hard to make a right choice.. and now I'm really scared of making choice now as i always fail from my expectation for making decision.

Reflecting back little bit, I should have not graduated my BA in English espcially from IFL as I made a promise in brain already that I should have not learnt English more as BA level as I had known my English procificiency is very good enough for my professional life. Life was SUCk. I made an insufficiently considerate decision for dilemma choices of business major, engineering major, or medicine major. I myself wanted business for I have grown up with business family already and it has grown up in my interest since then while engineering had grwon in me when I was 7 years old for playing building games and price observing on property in Australia...
Yet, my family business is related to Doctor as well as optometrist. So, I was expected to learn it. Nevertheless, as unpredictably expected happening through my grown up bros and dad discussion which had not reached a good agreement, I was convinced differently... Until I made a choice to study at IFL for I got scholarship there and the college itself is very well-known and it grew pride in me for this reason. It led me to say "well, I get this major for awhile as bridge to link to get scholarship to study abroad". Yeah, due to my poor commitment of struggling on scholarship challenge, I failed several times, and I gave up.. That makes me regret until today...

So let's talk about future because it's very long to talk about past and reasons for any suggestion you may have in mind. Now what are my possible careers:
1. lecturer at IFL: I used to think it's very good if I can teach there only evening time so that I can earn lots of money, but i think it's not right to invest time there for I have to stay there full day not only evening (rule) and it's not right investment for my long term goal. So NO.
2. family business reformer: It's highly likely that I work for this, but I know there would lots of problems of family issue when it's family business. I am the youngest and for sure, I can't come and work as the TOP of all. Still, I will impact on it. But, getting money from familly means I can't out of dependence from them even it's the salary I should get (they can't distinguish this)
3.running own business: phewww... there are lots of business I shall operate: bus service, dating service web, navigation web, mmm.... HR to career, personal development club, youth club, mmm... all are very possible in my brain right now.. I will invest in one among for sure. Yet, I take high risk. what if i fail and where investment i should get (family? then I will never get high pride from them zzzz)
4. recommended by siblings: phone service. it's a charming suggestion, yet I need to make a good analysis on it first...

pressure gets on me more and more for sure peak will be in late July and early August. Lately people in family have started to ask me what I want to do after graduation... zzzzz very annoying honestly..

who can consult me welll....mmmm.... i won't make repeated mistake

reasons of switch

dear all readers,
reasons dat u all can't see my post lately are that i switch my short talk in a private post on fb. Yet, i will recall from my short summary in privacy page to reveal here after i have released from pressure of my final year at IFL :)

thx for keep tracking reading mine
xoxo

The first National SME business plan competition

Yesterday, my whole team consisting of 3 people: Dona (team leader), Meyta, and I spent our whole day to do presentation of our business plan “safety bus service” to compete among whole 10 groups for the final stage of our National SME (small Medium) business plan competition hosted by University of Puthisastra.

            It was one of amazing experiences for me again when we can put ourselves into a real controversial discussion of the team. There were many disagreements between 3 of us that sometimes I feel I want to drop it out. Yet, it was great when the first selection stage that we sent our several business plan ideas and luckily we got one selected.

            Second stage is training from Peterson and a lecturer from WASDA university in Japan. It was a good time to learn some business ideas and meeting as well as discussion all 10 teams. The last stage was yesterday when all our 10 teams presented our business plan to whole audience. The night before, I went to sleep early and arrived there bit late (my whole team too). We spent our whole morning cramming for creating video and editing slides zzzz…. (I don’t like cramming…). Fortunately, we finished at 11am. it can be called LUCK that during lunch time, everyone could practice on stage. I felt I was very ready for my part :D

            After lunch, we joined the others’ presentation as well and I felt glad to see some AIESECers as well: Sam, Tong, Kim, Phyrum…. But once I felt not well at all. Thus, I went out and luckily I was ok. One of noticed part is Theara’s team (including Chenda and a guy studying Medicine). They had a fantastic speech (theara was funny speaker lol). I guessed they would likely pass.

            After that, it was a coffee break, lol another good luck that everyone could refresh their mind now. And it was our turn. Can’t believe it !!! we spent almost an hour for our business!!! It included our speech for 17mins and questions from judges. Everyone was interested, I believed. And I felt we would pass!!! Champion!!! There were some hints from judges during their questions that they wanted to invest in our business :D :D :D

            After then, we had a good conversation with Pheap and Sam for feedback. Still we felt awesome and couldn’t wait for result this evening at Raffle hotel during gala dinner  :D :D :D… later after whole presentations were over, my team started to discuss which should be potential to top 3. Then, we concluded Furniture group, street trackers from LUCT, our group, and Flower food of Theara…

            Way to Raffle hotel, I had a gut to call to her to reinvite her if she can join… then, LOL, her mom picked up phone. I just said I was her friend and wanted to know if she arrived home yet. Then, I called again to say my purpose of calling… I wanted to invite the daughter to join this lavished gala dinner :D

Still, the result was NO, but I was happy to hear that she did ask her mom about this hehehe… and it was a good reason that her dad was not at home. So good daughter stays home :p

We arrive Raffle hotel at 6pm and we had sometime to sit and talk around where mosquitoes were surrounding us… hate these enermies so much…

            Coming into ball room, we took a seat and waited and waited till 8pm for presence of H.E Sok Ann while during that time Dana came instead LOL. After speech till 9pm, the result came… it was not ready for everyone I guessed. Announcer: the bronze goes to group…. “safety bus service” erzzz…. I was not sure… is it number one or number 3??? Thought in my mind… mmm, sad face in joy. I knew my team felt same too. We expected at least number 2 to number 1. Sigh… Meyta cried after coming down stage.. I don’t know how she felt maybe excited LOL. After that, dinner time, dona was shined,” said Meyta. Haha several companies and people left him some contact for our business and/or him as their staff. So proud of him. I called my brother to tell whole family and texted a SMS to her.

We couldn’t believe number 2 goes to waste recycle into fertilizer. Unfuckingbelievable!!! (shouldn’t leave any commend here for my safety LOL)

            After all, dana was here, so we shall have little celebration. Thus, Chetra Sim, Pheap and 4 of us went to La Moon to have a cocktail. It was a nice view of riverside light feel like Wall street LOL…

My mom called me hahaha… I came back home 12.30am :D… all in all, it was tiring and less than our expectation but still a good memory.. we still have another chance to go to McKensy Business plan competition which is Mekong region competition… Let’s go another time my dear team ;)