A regret on other's expectation

In late morning on Saturday 13th Sep, 2014, surfing on facebook, I caught attention on a FB friend's post on AIESEC IFL LCM (a type of meeting). Bang! I wanted to drop a short visit! I just felt I missed the memory of the LCM.

I finally could manage to join their meeting. Initially, I just wanted to connect and get to know what the younger generation members had been doing. The feeling was great; I got a very warm greeting and nice talk with Reach, a Vice President. I even got great sense of welcome when I came into their meeting. I got little nice and short chats with other members and their chair I was quite impressed with their executive level on their presentations; they just did well. Until I was asked to share my story with AIESEC, I somehow got lost what to share.

I thought of sharing the audience with my reasons of joining AIESEC and full commitment with AIESEC by taking risk of stepping to be LCP (Local Committee President of AIESEC IFL) when I was about to finish my final year of university. Secondly, I shared them about failures I had faced during my management year including the whole team challenges and time conflict by working fully for AIESEC IFL against balanced time with my family members and friends. Eventually, despite numerous failures and downside moment, I could reach ultimate goals of leading AIESEC IFL to be the best of the year, influence friends and family on the time conflict, and improve personal and professional experience (lesson learnt from the mistakes).

The problems were that I explained in theoretical ways and attempted to mention them as "YOU" rather my personal stories. It was a huge irrlevant stories of their lives and abstract to them. I could feel negative senses rather inspiring stories that I tried to illustrate. I kept speaking unclear stories and did not finish with the right ending of my successful stories. I was distracted when I could realize I spoke over time, and some people needed to leave NOW!!

My speech was over, and I could feel sorry to them that I did not achieve expectation of EB (Executive boards) on me to inspire new members. I kept blaming myself for whole afternoon until night. Interestingly, I read a few articles on failure of entrepreneurs, which inspired me not to regret with what I have done, but to regret what I have never done. It was a quite remarkable experience for me to achieve what people expect from me.

Be better prepared, buddy.

The fear of start-up entrepreneur

Here we go; I decided to quickly come back into Phnom Penh, Cambodia after my graduation of Master degree from Shanghai University of Finance and Economics,  in Shanghai, China. It is because that I see great opportunities of many businesses to operate here.

However, it is not what I always expect. I just cannot make a shot without thinking too much. Here are my common steps of operating my business:

1. I try to think of what business to do, and I just make a big picture of it (the power of big dream into reality).
2. From my experience and family support condition, I know I can only invest in a business with less than 50k capital. Thus, I only focus on small capital business opportunities.
3. After the business concept #1 matches #2 criteria, I make financial planning in simple ways of expense, 3-month expected income, 1-year expected income, etc. It helps me to make a more serious decision if the profit is qualified motivation to work on it into reality.
4. I let myself have little break of several days or a week to see if I still have passion in it later. Of course, every business into action will take me a couple of years into commitment and hard work.
5. After making analysis on several businesses, I realize that I have limited professional qualification to develop my business into a systematic level rather a small and family business style.

So now, I realize that I have little problem of being too early to start-up without a proper cashflow (I have not earned for two years earlier and now I still do not make any income resource successfully). Sometimes, it is a big demoviation to turn me to rethink if I should work for others for further professional experience and human network while I can have time to consider what business to run at the same time.

Thanks for this moment, I have learnt many things about myself and future career path. For more information of life sharing, you may comment and ask.
Hope you have learnt something and would like to make some comments.