AIESEC poison?

Lately and lately, months pass and pass again.
I feel bit surprised myself when I'm too addicted to AIESEC. I spent all my time even reading books even playing internet, even spending time with friends... all for AIESEC.. mmmm

I can't help myself not to think of it. (it seems to be more important than my own future, even finding a gf lol)

I still consider to walk away from it OR i'll mistreat maself oneday and sob for maself again like the time i put my whole life on math-talent competition and left all my bright future apart. I'm scared now brrrr.... AIESEC poison in me??? mmmm

i have to drop it oneday b4 it's too late i guess :((
too passionate LCP or self-mismanaged LCP