time to leave

Well, today is my first day of no longer being LCP of AIESEC IFL...

what words can describe how I feel right now??? It's combination of feeling relief after no longer this high responsibility on my shoulders, yet I really can't help myself looking back the old time of every thing happening in  AIESEC IFL....

I feel as if it's just happened some time recently... Everything is on my mind once again with a quick scanning pics of everything including
- my standing on LCP election day,
-how hard to select EB team 10-11 (other candidates felt down when they couldn't make it..)
-how how to attempt for Discover leadership Seminar in Auditorium G,
-how late to prepare induction day till 2AM and whole day long of stressful judgement and observation to select new members 10-11....
-cheering and screaming sound on our members' announcement day: it's quite heart-attacking really...
-challenging marketing day during IFL graduation day
-Summer conference
-success of COMMS on GLP tickets
-success of WAP of OGX at UP conference
-sense of toughness of OPS by OGX
-troubles happening in ICX (meeting, people, ....etc.)
-troubles in LCM ...
-matters happening in OC for NC
........
-a true crying event of LC award during Gala dinner
-a wonderful ever NC: sense of togetherness, sense of loving LC, sense of maturing time, sense of true life
-good and bad time with MC...
.........

still, it's time to say GOODBYE v_v
though somehow I don't want to... it's time.... well, life is gonna move on.
I still wanna show my love and gratitude foremost to my EB team and wholly to my beloved LC as well as all AIESEC friends...

I <3 AIESEC
ONCE AIESECer, forever AIESECer

What makes you proud of yourself???

To all readers,

what make you proud of yourself??? I don't ask about your past pride. I wanna ask about achievement that can make you feel proud in the future. Why it's important?

Sure it is. Ask yourself for this answer....
It gives you direction of your want....

It simply makes you successful....

If you don't have any idea about your pride, don't worry you're not only one. You're one among many people who are waiting for failure i may say ..... (that should be pros and cons with this idea, but think over. if you even don't know what you want, who knows?)

What will make me proud of myself in this short 3-6months would be:
-get SSEAYP
-graduate from IFL with score 80s up
-get a scholarship to study MBA in China: Nanjing, Shanghai...

Yes, let's create our pride!!!

Reach a crossroad in life career

Time flies very fast, too fast to think over back again. It's almost four years already for my decision once again on career life... Honestly, it's really hard to make a right choice.. and now I'm really scared of making choice now as i always fail from my expectation for making decision.

Reflecting back little bit, I should have not graduated my BA in English espcially from IFL as I made a promise in brain already that I should have not learnt English more as BA level as I had known my English procificiency is very good enough for my professional life. Life was SUCk. I made an insufficiently considerate decision for dilemma choices of business major, engineering major, or medicine major. I myself wanted business for I have grown up with business family already and it has grown up in my interest since then while engineering had grwon in me when I was 7 years old for playing building games and price observing on property in Australia...
Yet, my family business is related to Doctor as well as optometrist. So, I was expected to learn it. Nevertheless, as unpredictably expected happening through my grown up bros and dad discussion which had not reached a good agreement, I was convinced differently... Until I made a choice to study at IFL for I got scholarship there and the college itself is very well-known and it grew pride in me for this reason. It led me to say "well, I get this major for awhile as bridge to link to get scholarship to study abroad". Yeah, due to my poor commitment of struggling on scholarship challenge, I failed several times, and I gave up.. That makes me regret until today...

So let's talk about future because it's very long to talk about past and reasons for any suggestion you may have in mind. Now what are my possible careers:
1. lecturer at IFL: I used to think it's very good if I can teach there only evening time so that I can earn lots of money, but i think it's not right to invest time there for I have to stay there full day not only evening (rule) and it's not right investment for my long term goal. So NO.
2. family business reformer: It's highly likely that I work for this, but I know there would lots of problems of family issue when it's family business. I am the youngest and for sure, I can't come and work as the TOP of all. Still, I will impact on it. But, getting money from familly means I can't out of dependence from them even it's the salary I should get (they can't distinguish this)
3.running own business: phewww... there are lots of business I shall operate: bus service, dating service web, navigation web, mmm.... HR to career, personal development club, youth club, mmm... all are very possible in my brain right now.. I will invest in one among for sure. Yet, I take high risk. what if i fail and where investment i should get (family? then I will never get high pride from them zzzz)
4. recommended by siblings: phone service. it's a charming suggestion, yet I need to make a good analysis on it first...

pressure gets on me more and more for sure peak will be in late July and early August. Lately people in family have started to ask me what I want to do after graduation... zzzzz very annoying honestly..

who can consult me welll....mmmm.... i won't make repeated mistake

reasons of switch

dear all readers,
reasons dat u all can't see my post lately are that i switch my short talk in a private post on fb. Yet, i will recall from my short summary in privacy page to reveal here after i have released from pressure of my final year at IFL :)

thx for keep tracking reading mine
xoxo

The first National SME business plan competition

Yesterday, my whole team consisting of 3 people: Dona (team leader), Meyta, and I spent our whole day to do presentation of our business plan “safety bus service” to compete among whole 10 groups for the final stage of our National SME (small Medium) business plan competition hosted by University of Puthisastra.

            It was one of amazing experiences for me again when we can put ourselves into a real controversial discussion of the team. There were many disagreements between 3 of us that sometimes I feel I want to drop it out. Yet, it was great when the first selection stage that we sent our several business plan ideas and luckily we got one selected.

            Second stage is training from Peterson and a lecturer from WASDA university in Japan. It was a good time to learn some business ideas and meeting as well as discussion all 10 teams. The last stage was yesterday when all our 10 teams presented our business plan to whole audience. The night before, I went to sleep early and arrived there bit late (my whole team too). We spent our whole morning cramming for creating video and editing slides zzzz…. (I don’t like cramming…). Fortunately, we finished at 11am. it can be called LUCK that during lunch time, everyone could practice on stage. I felt I was very ready for my part :D

            After lunch, we joined the others’ presentation as well and I felt glad to see some AIESECers as well: Sam, Tong, Kim, Phyrum…. But once I felt not well at all. Thus, I went out and luckily I was ok. One of noticed part is Theara’s team (including Chenda and a guy studying Medicine). They had a fantastic speech (theara was funny speaker lol). I guessed they would likely pass.

            After that, it was a coffee break, lol another good luck that everyone could refresh their mind now. And it was our turn. Can’t believe it !!! we spent almost an hour for our business!!! It included our speech for 17mins and questions from judges. Everyone was interested, I believed. And I felt we would pass!!! Champion!!! There were some hints from judges during their questions that they wanted to invest in our business :D :D :D

            After then, we had a good conversation with Pheap and Sam for feedback. Still we felt awesome and couldn’t wait for result this evening at Raffle hotel during gala dinner  :D :D :D… later after whole presentations were over, my team started to discuss which should be potential to top 3. Then, we concluded Furniture group, street trackers from LUCT, our group, and Flower food of Theara…

            Way to Raffle hotel, I had a gut to call to her to reinvite her if she can join… then, LOL, her mom picked up phone. I just said I was her friend and wanted to know if she arrived home yet. Then, I called again to say my purpose of calling… I wanted to invite the daughter to join this lavished gala dinner :D

Still, the result was NO, but I was happy to hear that she did ask her mom about this hehehe… and it was a good reason that her dad was not at home. So good daughter stays home :p

We arrive Raffle hotel at 6pm and we had sometime to sit and talk around where mosquitoes were surrounding us… hate these enermies so much…

            Coming into ball room, we took a seat and waited and waited till 8pm for presence of H.E Sok Ann while during that time Dana came instead LOL. After speech till 9pm, the result came… it was not ready for everyone I guessed. Announcer: the bronze goes to group…. “safety bus service” erzzz…. I was not sure… is it number one or number 3??? Thought in my mind… mmm, sad face in joy. I knew my team felt same too. We expected at least number 2 to number 1. Sigh… Meyta cried after coming down stage.. I don’t know how she felt maybe excited LOL. After that, dinner time, dona was shined,” said Meyta. Haha several companies and people left him some contact for our business and/or him as their staff. So proud of him. I called my brother to tell whole family and texted a SMS to her.

We couldn’t believe number 2 goes to waste recycle into fertilizer. Unfuckingbelievable!!! (shouldn’t leave any commend here for my safety LOL)

            After all, dana was here, so we shall have little celebration. Thus, Chetra Sim, Pheap and 4 of us went to La Moon to have a cocktail. It was a nice view of riverside light feel like Wall street LOL…

My mom called me hahaha… I came back home 12.30am :D… all in all, it was tiring and less than our expectation but still a good memory.. we still have another chance to go to McKensy Business plan competition which is Mekong region competition… Let’s go another time my dear team ;)

the best ever memory NC' 11

It’s long time ago that I haven’t expressed my full feeling on the blog on one event as I have been monthly deadly busy, but I rethink and believe that writing a good blog piece is worth to read for whole life memory. Thus, it pushes me to write it as I used to.

            Reflecting back to national congress of AIESEC Cambodia held from 6^th-9^th Jan, 2010 at Pacific Hotel, a very cool 4-star hotel, I have gained amazing memory from it as life-long lesson.

            The night before NC, I spent few hours ironing clothes, packing and putting necessary staff into my little small luggage. Of course laptop is important wherever I am staying. (promise of playing Dota is there as well LOL).

            The early moning windy cooly 6am, alarming clock woke me up to rush prepare everything done to catch a renting bus parking at UP leaving from Phnom Penh at 7am. Putting into a nice brown shirt, I held a big bagpack, my mini luggage, and 2 jackets… Ay! I arrived the bus and leaving to SR with 20s people now. One bus of several AIESEC IFLers so exciting. We had fun and quietness on the bus. I worked as MC and OC somehow. it was a good experience for me as well. 

            The first day of NC was somehow tiring. We didn’t stop for a lunch due to lateness for NC start. Reaching SR is so exciting and especially I saw a logo of NC in front of Pacific hotel. It’s damn cool.  Damn! Just stepping down on the ground, my god!!! So tired. OC starts to say “prepare for LC roll call!!!” shhh… my mind is exhausted and complex now; I couldn’t think of a right roll call at all. Last 5minutes pushed me to make some move. Hahaha…. It was nice at least.

            Oh my god! NC goes on and on until 6 nearly 7pm I guess that we stopped for dinner… the chair didn’t know that we didn’t have lunch. Everyone looks so exhausted and deadly pale. Luckily, no one fainted because of it. After dinner, Boat racing!!! Wow interesting! I’m not a drinker haha. Londy was so impressive that he drank so fast!! Faster than the chair who claimed for 2seconds for his glass of beer. Londy coming back from Italy after one year is amazing now!!!

            Guess what? The 1^st night of NC is the night of doing Business plan powerpoint hahaha. I, meyta, and dona staying downstair doing our parts until 4am while everyone was having room party. I’m bit jealous actually. Yet, I chatted with my loppy angel was a great night. She stayed late for her movie or what. I’m note sure :D  whatever it is, it was our great time. Yay! I finished my big task now! 4am I drafted my BP part already. I’m proud of myself for fast worker now :D :D :D

          

  My eyes was black of lacking sleep now. I woke up nearly 9am, I planned to skip session in the morning for finalizing BP now. After that it was another new experience of preparing MC question interview. Way of welcoming MCVP candidate was great. Everyone gave big applause to welcome and as if we all supported them. Reach had a very convincing speech, pisey somehow included a “starfish” lesson, Londy was so so. But that time, it seemed @pp occupied all fame; it was bad that @ifl has no one to apply at all. It was ashamed. I know all @ifl members feel bad on me and they wonder why I dropped my application. Well, I will tell you why at the bottom. 3 of them are friendly and got enough support to stand for next level. Unfortunately, Kolmen was voted to down. Maybe he was not famous and his little silly behavior makes everyone not trust on him. I feel sorry for him. He was a great guy and of course should be a part of MC level.         

            The craziest party started!! Hahaha. My god, everyone dressed really stupid hahaha… Chi painted her face as laughy way, nine hahahahha her hair hahaha, I cant help let myself jong sork te LMAO. Vannak no doubt acts stupidly gagaga.. it was really crazy night with many crazy people.. but for sure it was full of fun and joy. I can’t believe many people gone wild like this Lmao.

            After party, we had LC room party !!! it was a very great time for whole people in LC to sit and sleep on joined 2beds in room 240. First we played dropping paper to do truth and dare. My god, Dana did many crazy things: tickling people for 15seconds, hugging each other and whirling around the bed, … we asked many hitting questions, Meyta asked me so hard hahaha… “how mch are you interested in…..?” “85%” :D it was just interest not yet sure into LOVE :G :G everyone seems to be sad (especially girls lol). Still most push me to do some actions NOW… I’m not good at it honestly. Hope to get her cooperation ^^

            The 3^rd day starts!!!  Last night I got some calls from family to remind of checking house rent in Siem Reap, umm there was really no time at all. The morning the time for interviewing MC candidates: Pisey, Reach, Londy, Jack, Andrea… but I missed from Londy due to going for family’s task. We, interviewers all LCPs and MCP and one MC in-out had a really exhausting day. We finished interview at 4pm as I remember. ( I asked some tough question to Pisey and Reach; hope they not mind me).

            The most ever I couldn’t believe myself starts. GALA dinner!!! The time for announcing award of LCs. I was very confident (nearly 100%) for the best LC award. Everyone put on a very nice dress (jacket for men and rope for ladies). It was a fantastic time accompanied with guitar from @LUCT (I wish I could play too _*). Dinner was little bad actually but flash of cameras were everywhere… I should have taken more with others LOL. …   the moment of excitement came…. Announcement of award started…. The sexiest man and woman were Ream and Ka siblings from @LUCT. They were great. The best project impacting to society was… Ream… The best individual impacting to whole @cambodia was.. Panha LCP PP….. only last one …. The best LC award… everyone got shocked now…. My whole members sitting in same table were trembling I guessed. “don’t worry, trust me” I said. I was very very confident in it….

It was AIESEC IFL!!!! Wooo hoooo!!!! I felt greater than expected thought I know it must be us. I was asked to talk on speech… mmmm… I know what I want to talk already honestly… but I couldn’t help myself not to tear out for too great moment of time… I never tear for long time after the last time was when my grandma passed away (when I was grade 6 or 7 as I remember). Though I felt or passed any big events: scholarships, work, love failure, family problem (oh no I used to for this. It should be when I was year 1 then.) , others… I never tear out… it was too great not mean beyond my ability. I was just too happy to feel it. I cried ‘cause I was overjoy and proud of my whole members for their sharing success: meyta, yaya, nita, chak, OC, others…

Here is what I want to say “thank you everyone for support and reconizing us. (turning to my members) here it is. This moment of time is the time of realizing our everything of our effort. It reflects me lot back just several steps toward this stage. It reminds me what I promised when I was elected as LCP of @IFL. I promised to put all my effort to make our LC greater and greater and ever before. For sure is LC best award. And it is the truth nor a dream anymore. I would love to share this award to each and every of you for working so hard and walking altogether passing success and hardship all time for our several months to give many results. Here it is the best LC award!!!! “turn to audience” I also want to say thank you to everyone here and others in Phnom Penh for everything you have done and helped us. For sure, we’re all great people. We’re all successors so please give a big clap for ourselves and whole AIESEC Cambodia. I love AIESEC”

            Another great thing in NC is that I have met most of my expectation.

1.      Make influence to every level of people: top, middle, lower level to me. I make some influence LOL.

2.      I did talk and make friends with international AIESECers (Japan and Brazil)

3.      I did learn and talk with sponsors from Yamaha and Caminco

4.      I build stronger bond of whole LC (it’s beyond expectation I guess)

Still it is. It is a really great time for whole 4 days that I have learnt lots of things to make me feel more mature and grown up more now. I feel so. It is really great memory for joining NC’11. I got around 20's sugar cube :D :D :D 

It’s a very long essay here LOL 1540 words =)) thanks for reading till end ( I don’t think many read till end)